wong

hakim's birthday dinner last wed was held at ah mets turkish restaurant ! yummilicious foood!

mark's lamb cutlets
zef and his mixed plattermy barramundi fillets!



when joel and i were discussing about australia featuring loads of news abt australia but little about the world! and i coudnt' stop laughing when i saw what he typed!

joanna 美丝 take my hand, lead me home // says:
very little on the world
eL says:
then u dunno what happen in sg?
joanna 美丝 take my hand, lead me home // says:
HAHHAA
joanna 美丝 take my hand, lead me home // says:
dunno
joanna 美丝 take my hand, lead me home // says:
i never read
joanna 美丝 take my hand, lead me home // says:
online
eL says:
oh i running for president
eL says:
LOL


and then

eL says:
is taipei in taiwan
eL says:
LOL


MY GOSH, he never fails to make me laugh =) THANKS WONG!

bednight talk

i had a good bedtime talk with simon till 3am and it was good that we could have a sorta bro-sis talk together

maybe he's right, i've been too exhusted trying to juggle lab work, proposal and things outside of work and the only thing i need is some 'me' time. i havent been the usual jo i was months back or b4 everything came tumbling down , when issues started to arise and worrying and warying exsisted between friends whom i've been spent most time with. i cant revert back to that but i guess i should start trying to forget what has happened and enjoy the friendship we've got

maybe its time when i stop doing anything for people and let someone do something for me

everyone needs 'me ' time but i havent got mine for months i havent been able to just sit down and just not do anything for anyone or anything so maybe its time to give the neglected self some recuperating moments to get myself up and going again

where was it ?

so why wasn't i included in the picture huh?

cooking

i used like cooking but nowadays i'm starting to dislike it alot

everytime after i finish cooking , my face is flushed from the heat of the stove and a headache would follow suit, and after an extremely tiring day, i really wish i need not do anything!

so what if u're done with your work , sometimes its better for you to keep quiet and not complain of being sian or bored or wateva when in actual fact you are not

stop telling and asking me to be happy becos the due date of the assignment is approaching , and we can finally hand it in and all but sorry i'm not ready to do so , if you are, by all means submit it, i do not care

i seriously regretted introducing you the labs that i was interested in and i really really do not wish to see you as much as i possibly can

yes your lab is good, ur lab is fantastic, u have a excellent supervisor you have good labbook keeping skills

what makes you think i dont ?

wake up your idea la!

just leave me alone, will you ?

just when i thought

just when i thought my proposal was more than 3/4 done, i realised that it has been a huge mistake

there's loads more to write and catch up and i have up till 2nd sept as 3rd sept4pm is the due date and i wouldnt wanna be rushing like a mad woman on the 3rd, so i gave myself the dateline to be done by 2nd, and checked on 3rd morning b4 i hand it in

BUT right now, I dont know if im on the right track and its freaking me out

movie+dinner

dinner with yiling and sam sam was good =) goodie food! first it was to the sushi bar where we had roughly 3plates of sushi each and then ms teo said she was craving for curry and ZOOMZOOM it was off to the gandhi curry house for indian foood =)) YUM! the naan was cripsy and yummy!

then i met jason zef and hakim for TAKEN , i think it was relatively a good and entertaining movie, something to keep my mind off work for awhle ! oh we witness some drunktard whacking some guy and then he was bleeeding! and i was soo taken aback by that and my heart went out to that poor chap , sigh , this isnt singapore

west end tommorrow! and whats not =)

home

it feeels good to be home although i only went to the lab for 15mins to hand in my draft and then scott off

i'm exhausted from trying to squint my eyes and read the journals i have on hand and its tiring to try to understand and absorb whatever's published!

the only thing i have to look forward today is dinner =) yay

exhaustion!

im totally exhausted from racking my brains to write my research proposal =((

taukwa's going back to irelanddddd BOOO! have fun studying in third year =))

anyhows, i m taking a break from lab tml so im heading to the library to get my proposal going and then lunch at wordsmiths ( how i miss it ) with lydia

YAY

just

just when i thought my luck has changed for the better

i found a slip of white paper on my windscreen after work, i've gotten a fine of $60 for illegal parking

HAHAHAHA ok larhs, it was something that would come sooner or later so from tml onwards i have to go early to "chop" place

tiring

my goodness , its tiring to not slp enough and its also tiring to slp too much

so i wonder whats the optimum sleeping amount i should have!

tsk tsk

salt and battery

dinner at salt and battery's at hawken =) it was zef's treat cos he was feeeeeeeeeling rich muhahaha but we got to enjoy free meal!which is GOOD

dearest samanthas

dearest samantha huang shuwen!

welcome back to singappoooreee =)) i know you dearly miss america but well u can visit her nxt time again ok! for now , its back to uni and study!

and next up samantha chew!!!!! it was good having dinner with you last night =) i know its a tough and stressful period now b4 your presentation on tues and there's more to be practiced and done to perfect it! jiayou! keep holding on yea! =) have a good rest b4 u chiong all the way!!!

to lydia! gooooood luck for the test tml! =)))

aza aza fighting!

for not stoping at the stop sign b4 i turned at indro, i got a fine of $225, frigging $225aud! im sorry for the language but i cannot contain the anger and shock i experienced 15mins ago

i could count at least 10 cars not stopping before going off BUT i was plain unlucky and suay that i got stopped and i got the ticket and i have to pay a huge fucking sum of $225

when the stupid officer said to pay the fine of $225 within 20 days , i couldnt believe my ears and even asked him to repeat the amount he just said

unbelievable! even getting a parking fine would be less than a fine of NOT stopping at the stop line.

i cannot stop harping on the fact that im just so unlucky that they are out to catch drivers like me who do not stop at the stop line but WHO DOES when there's no cars

pardon me for the obscene language but i really am just frigging shocked

knowing

the last thing i needed was for you guys to scream at me over the other end of the phone hurling hurtful words

not knowing how to express myself does not equate to not caring for people

a break from everything would be good for now

=)

i had a really good time at dinner earlier on with jac and yiling, and a pity samsam's not there because of headache, i hope u're feeling better yea? =)) u were missed!!

we had wayyy too much food and dessertst at singaura @ milton =) but it was good , i loved the company i had , it kept me away from things i did not wish too think about and i totally enjoyed every bit of it!

thanks to everyone who encouraged me in one way or another =) loves!

ekka was good yesterday! zef kindly promised to win me a carebear and although he tried hard enough despite being sick and all and wasting all that money, i was really touched and happy and he really was nice =) i know you may not see this but anyways THANK YOU ZEF!!!! it was really really the thought that mattered!

When our problems overwhelm us,
God wants us to look to Him;
He provides the right solutions—
Lighting paths that once were dim. —Sper

Impossibilities compel us to rely on God

more and more

the more i interact with you

the more i talk to you

the more i try to be as best a friend i can to you

the more i feel disgusted

but i cannot stay away from you

i only can grit and bear

boohoo 1

thanks sue =) i love you!

boohoo

the saddest thing this week is that i've to go back tommorrow to do lab work in the morning when its actually a public holiday!!

i've had plans to go for EKKA( the once a year exhibition of farm animals and carnival) but now i've gotta postpone it to later in the afternoon because of lab!

staying in front of the bunsen burner for almost an hour streaking and innoculating my culture plates and tubes is making me have a really bad headache nowwww and im really not in a good mood, i have no idea why =( i feeel reallly depressssssssssed

for a very long time in a while, im feelin really unhappy, i dont know why

i just do.

BOOHOO

blood!

i'm exhausted from everything that i've done today ! especially lab stufff , DNA ligation blah blah hopefully the bacteria's growing well and i can harvest them tomorrow

so this morning i went to do my research centre's annual blood collection ( so that when we fall sick, we can trace back if its a bug from the research centre or wad)

and as i was waiting there in the royal children's hospital pathology unit, there were a couple of kids just right in front of me in the queue

i smiled at some of them only to receive cold stares or their heads turning away , then it occurred to me that they are all ill

a really pretty young little girl maybe the age of barely 2 had really yellow skin and maybe it was jaundice as a results of wateva illness she had. I heard her cries when the nurse was taking her blood , but she came out smiling and looking like a brave young soul!

another little girl was on a wheelchair just b4 me, and before she went into the room she took off her snow cap which then revealed a bald head as a result of chemo that she had gone thru.

honestly, i admire them ! for the courage to go through all that they've suffered and for wateva that may come in their way in the future but at the same time , my heart goes out to them because of the sufferings they've gone through

i pray that every little one of them will be cured , to have a happy childhood and a bright future ahead of them and to whatever suffering they are enduring now, i pray that God will decrease that pain

then, did i realised that i am really truly blessed

lost

a friend sent me his/her proposal outta good will to let me have a look at how it was written

and all i can really say is, i've fallen far short of what he/she had written ! my first draft that was given to my supervisor just 2 days ago should be consider a piece of junk or should i say really crappy work

greg asked me how's my project going along and all i could answer him was a simple 3 word answer " I DON'T KNOW" which he then proceeded to asking if i'm lost , the first answer that came to my mind was a definite YES but i cant' do anything about it now since its the beginning and i'm still trying my best to understand every single bit of my project in the best of knowlegde that i have from all my years of studying ( hopefully it was useful )

you know how difficult it is when people ask you to put your trust in God, and do your part while He takes care of the rest? i totally understand their point and where they are coming from but at times when the going gets tough, its not hard to wonder what's gonna happen nxt and how not to worry about anything

those who know me well enough will know that i worry and panick at the slighest and smallest issue ever available

so how can i not to at this moment when it concerns my future and a big part of my career in future

Hmph, sometimes I feel like lashing out at everything around me, displaying what I really think, and feel, and then I am reminded. That I'm just so human, so flawed, and that if I let myself sink so low, I'm no better than someone being destructive

Time to be brave, time to endure. Time to be patient, time to control. Time to pray.

Why now, the day before tomorrow, when I should be focused, composed, why am I not? Sigh.

ndp celebrations

we had out ndp celebrations in school last night! but within halfway through the parade, my frends and i left for little paris at park road for some chilling out session with beeeeer! keke





on another note, if its because of me that things turn out the way it isnt meant to be or not supposed to, i'm sorry

its hard to juggle on both sides, i always have a hard time and im trying very hard myself, i hope u guys understand

hopefully, everthing subsides and there would be a brand new start to everything!

BOO

i slept at 4 am and with only 4 hours of sleep, i went to the lab ! and then i began some lab work

then i came home then went out for dinner and then movie, x files (at a certain point i actually fell asleep when scully and whatever that guys name is were talking)

its 1 odd am now and im really tired but everyone's watching the olympics opening ceremony, im not complaining its just its like on full blast and im really tired and exhausted and i really really need to sleep , but no one actually understands.

boohoo

i've sorta finish what i wanna hand in to my supervisor tml but i just cannot get to sleep

i guess my stress mode hasnt decreased yet therefore i cannot put my mind at ease

i'm trying to read my journal in the dark, how nice.

the laptop's light is definitely not sufficient but i guess tats the way things are gonna be right now

BOO

stress

i havent felt the stress from writing my proposal for the honours project until today

promising my supervisor that i'll give him my first draft tomorrow isnt an easy task

trying to be focus is something that i've been trying to do or rather learn all the time during my undergrad days and now during my post undergrad days as an honours student, i am still .. learning that.

its tough but i've already started the race and i can't possibly give it up right now without reaching the finishing line

i'm hanging on, are you ?

for that 5mins during my breaktime, i thought of you guys - sue, sam, mags,jinny and joel

I MISS YOU' ALL!

drama mama

so loads of drama mama stuff has been happening over the past few days

i would say they're pretty much a 'fun' experience for them and a little bit of a show for me!

but through it all, i guess we could see how God has been really gracious and kind to us in many ways or rather in ALL circumstances that we've gone through

I've taken to saying this more and more often

If in doubt, pray. Then again, if anything, and I really mean anything, pray. Thats the only answer that I have to anything so far

If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it

its true =)

the home

the home isnt exactly a home to me anymore

i don't like coming back to see faces that are black

i really don't.

official

i went to work thinking that my supervisor's gonna be back today! little did i know that its actually tomorrow that he would be back at lab! so i spent about 2 hours reading the journals in the office which turned out to be pretty much very very productive! it was good while it lasted

then the masters student came and talked to me for awhile b4 i decided that i should just head back home instead of hanging out there

i've got exactly one month b4 my research proposal is due and i'm not feeling the heat yet probably because nick hasnt told me what he expects of me and the aims of my project so we'll just wait and see what happens

hello jo, its just the beginning.

guitar heroes!

over due pictures! chengyan,yinghui jason and my self having coffee

anyways i'm totally exhausted from going out so early in the morning to get groceries and then heading to my friend's hse to put stuff and ended up playing guitar heroes on wii!!!!!!! my gosh its uber funn and i kept making a lot of noise because i kept missing the notes! one thing i found out today is that my coordination sucks big timeeeeee

lab 's gonna start this monday!! i think i'm gonna kil my self tml when i start choinging all the readings! BAHH!