midnight shopping

i just came home from the midnight shopping at town with sam , sigh i spent 1 hr queuing up at metro paragon to pay for my mum's cosmetics!!! and sam was accompanying me! thanks sam! =)

then the lady in front of us got very interested in our conversations and started to join in haha, how appealing we both were haha! and i think we chatted quite a fair bit considering we all were strangers!

anyhows i feel so bad that there was very little time left for sam to shop! sorry sam!

sleeping time!

pictures!

the group of relief teachers at presbyterian high =) kaiyang(the guy) is leaving for army! haha so it was a little farewell party for him at school today

its the best day so far since i started teaching we were all very high and excited and happy! kaiyang and i are the year 87s whereas the rest are 88s while the one in yellow's year 89!

it was a wonderful friday and im so dying to teach somemore suddenly cos of the familiarity of the school and all

and why was it so wonderful ? cos i was ultra fierce today to a sec 1 class.
last time i relief them , they used hps and stuff and when i scolded them they didnt bother or respected me

today i was so super fierce that they all kept really quiet and this boy came up to me and said "ms fong, you improved alot, now i very scared of you"

haha i was so surprised and i felt like i acheived a great deal today! anyhows kudos to me for being able to shout and scream at this bunch and made them scared of me =)

i suddenly remembered at staff meeeting today , i went in late then this sanjay ( a teacher) started to ask "where's that primary sch kid arh" (referring to me cos of kiddy voice ) and then he started imitating my voice and all and i overheard it! damn assssss hole lar then everybody started laughing at me! grr! but im kinda enjoying it nowadays that its not as bad as the first week!

late night shopping with sam in town later on =) im so looking forward to it even tho im pretty much a poor girl now =(

wooohooo!

schooooooooool

school was afterall fine today, returned the test paper i set for sec 3NT , only like 4 passed ? and its boderline passes! the rest failed and lowest was 1/25 ..when marking the papers this morning, my heart sank, cos i really took super easy questions and once u memorised the formula , the questions can be easily done

the students complained that the english was too "chim" but i thought other wise ? and the teachers said it was alright but during the test, they came to ask me, wads define ? i got a shock but of cos i had to explain the meaning which was what is or explain which i told them larh, sigh it felt really sucky when ur students fail even the simplest question of define avg speed and they are sec 3s

after feeling so horrible yesterdaay, today was a bright and sunny day filled with much laughter
the teachers were commenting how kiddish i sounded and they understood why the students damn teasing me =( sigh this teacher who looks like durai from nkf said i was so whiny and my voice hasnt broke yet! wth right ? haha but it was fun!

im so looking forward tommorrow becos i only have 30mins of lesson!! =) lalala

and then its slacking time in the staff room

despite all its downs in this school , i think i might miss it when i leave next wednesday actually, isnt it an irony ? but life's like that isnt it , i guess im getting alittle used to it now that leaving would be alittle weird

nap-time

n

and im uber depressed and upset today

i need a shoulder to cry on

will you lend me yours? =(

5 more days

monday blues

school as usual was alright, better than last week

went to school , chionged bio notes and test paper , printed them out then slack =)

tml would be the same thing also but i guess im gonna be more relaxed cos i've only got 2 lessons =)

life's good so far apart frm the early sessions.. im gonna find more relief jobs when i finish this one at PHS!

where have u gone to ?

i think im quite screwed

okays i think i am quite screwed right now

i havent finished setting the test paper for the sec3NT science

i havent made notes for sec3 express bio and sec4 NA bio!

i didnt bring back the bio books to make notes!

i dread going to school , ok just 8 more days left, think abt the money $65 per day but the bad thing is i wake up at 6am every morning!

im gonna get my pay on the 9th april and then go sign up for gym, lose all the excess weight b4 i go australia and get even much more cos geri scared me when she told me she gain around 5-10kg when she went there, i dun want my weight loss last year to be wasted so i must quickly shed first!

there's this relief teacher who keeps wanting me to go out with her and im irritated but i dunno how to turn her down, pls save me

8 more days
8 more days

jo , u can survive , im dead sure abt it

mr daniel chen,are u going to australia anot!

mr bean

anyone?

you desperately want that person to ask u out but that person doesnt make any move
ok i dunno wad im talking bahhhhhs!

life as a relief teacher

teaching was enjoyable today for the first time

i had a relief class of sec 4 express eng and their teacher had some worksheets for them and guess wad, it was like for pri sch kids! like match the following sentences with the pictures?! wad the hell right ? haha!

anyways so i quickly asked them to finish up and then they can study for their chem test! and then i 'lost' the room key and i got all panicky and upset and flustered! and then i started exclaiming if they've seen the keys and all ! and u guys know how kiddish my voice is right, so when i started exclaiming, they were laughing at me, yes ME! =( haha but it was cool , everything was pretty fun cos i didnt take the NT class today! thank God!

im dying to go out! can someone ask me out!

dread

i dread going to sch now even tho its only the 2nd day, i dread even more to see the normal tech students

today i asked them to copy notes that i wrote on the board, girls weere fine, one guy nearly beat me up ? and im like for wad ? i never shouted never scolded never did anything, all i did was write the notes on the board and asked them to copy in their notebooks! i wasnt scared, i was just stunned at how bad these students were

maybe all along , i've been from better schools, not the top but better ones and its such a big eye opener when u teach in these neighbourhood schs and im not discriminating them its just different.

the only happy thing was the sec 4NA bio class was quite funny, they were chatting with me like long time frends and i guess that ended my day pretty well amidst those nonsense i experienced earlier on

all i long for is someone to listen to my woes,where are u ?

teaching stint

my first day of teaching was extremely horrible!

i m helping the hod of science do relief teaching , and he teaches 1 normal tech class which im incharged of and i nearly died

they dun give a damn abt u, u cant control them, they dun greet u and all

even the express students are like that

i m sorry but i think standard of neighbourhood schs are really low, if u have a kid, never ever send them to one

phathom!

i desperately absolutely extremely wanna watch the phantom of the opera !that is so so so my desire but there's not a single soul who would accompany me.

sigh

huh?

i bought a new pair of sunnies =)

anyhows i think there's a problem with my right side lens, cos it always feels like its gonna pop out every moment i blink my eye and it seems to have a blurrer vision =( so i guess i've to pop by the shop on monday to get it checked out or something

for 3 consecutive weekends, my family's been going to the same jap restaurant(but different branches) and im reallyyy getting tired of it but of cos the food's good, im not complaining but why cant we try something different the next time ?

i was talking to a frend the other day and we were discussing how guys chase after the girls and get so uptight and worked up and always wanting to be in their lives, we call it being sticky but then girls dun like the guy giving total freedom to her, it makes her feel like he doesnt give a shit at all and i think its quite true, of cos i get all irritated when someone i dun like pesters me but when someone i like doesnt bother abt me at all , i get all upset and stuff, like if he likes u but he doesnt make an effort to call u / meet you then wad for! eeks

i guess if someone chases after me, u better not give me total freedom ok cos i dun exactly like it, so to whom it may concern, take note.

haha! show me some loveeeee aiyo! okays im cranky

okays lets see wad i should update, i've applied to UQ again and im off in late june once i get 2 years off =) im starting relief on monday and i must say im kinda afraid , that i wudnt be up to the job cos i 've neva taken bio until poly and i have to really do my hw b4 each lesson, and physics? that was like 3 years ago! i've forgotten abt everything! threw everything back to mr stanley lim already how to remember ???!! and the teacher im reliefing says i must do some powerpoint for certain lessons? im like sooo dead

eh ?! for $$ jo for $$ then i have $$ to join the gym


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happy birthday!

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY SAMANTHA!!!

ok maybe cos its sam's birthday and shes' given off some luck cos for the first time, i've received a call for relief teaching at presbyterian high sch for 3 weeks!! =)) teachin biology and physics!

yipppie!

world record

can you guys believe it, i've been staying at home for 4 whole days! never left the house at all , what an achievement =) haha!

okayys fever's gone, flu's still very much around and my voice isn't fully back yet, i still sound extremely horrible

thanks for asking abt me the past few days ! appreciated everyone of you =)

im still jobless though =(

give me a penny someone.

im a dip holder!

and yes , today i officially hold a diploma in biotechnology =))

i did extremely well for the previous semester but my other 5 sems pulled my gpa down so i stil have a shitty gpa but who cares i guess , my parents are relenting and sorta letting me go to australia and stuff but we'll see

i hope uq gives me at least a year of exemption and i wud be contented

dengue ?

i am starting to wonder if im having dengue since i've had a fever hovering ard 38 degrees for 4 str days

i feel giddy everytime and if i stand up after sitting for too long, my vision somehow gets alittle blur b4 i regain clarity of everything

i feel terrible =(

cooked

i guess my brain's getting cooked after 3days =(

burnt,

after 2 days , the fever hasnt subsided.

i dragged myself to church this morning only but i slept during sermon

my head's burning or practically my whole bod..

last night was an ordeal but i managed to survive

how long is this gonna last ? i wonder if i can still take it

sigh

curlies!

okays so if u guys wanna have a glimpse of how i looked last night during grad night =)

here's a picture of me! haha and my curly hair for the first time =)

other pics up when i get hold of them!

grrrrr!

gary called to tell me that most likely i wouldnt be able to get the relief position in holy innocents cos everyone there is too lazy to process my application, like wth ?

i think i should give up on finding any relief teaching position at all.

so a lady called me telling me that there's a temp for 2 weeks at SIM admin =) sent my resume to sim and said she would call me asap but up till now, she hasnt called me back! so i think its not a deal also =(

thennn i went for a admin interview at some place near my house cos one of their workers is going on materity leave, and they need help but i don't like the environment there cos its quite scary, its super quiet so i guess i dun wanna take up that job! ok me for being fussy right ? but i realy don't like it there so why go at the expense of my happiness ! =))

its horrible being jobless ,cos everyday $$ just goes away without any coming back in, demand is higher than its supply =( boohoo.

ok i have this crazy idea now , and that is to email the principal of Holy innocents =) and i am just gonna do that right now.

for the ones who are growing up

fly by my window,

o time and space

where are you going?

it’s not a race.

people hustling and bustling

like we all care

for one thing that drives us

is the home that we share

with love and laughter

sorrow and tears

kept in high wonder

these beautiful years.

for none we do realise,

for which do we fight,

is what we may finally cherish

if slow down we might.

rainbows and butterflies

come hither yonder,

but sweet youth and tenderness,

won’t come again.

So cherish your youth’s September,

while it still lasts.

for that which comes after,

seems like time passed too fast.

an eventful day

it was the most eventful day of 2007 to date.

gary woke me up this morning only to tell me that my bestie at church,eunice's mum passed away and i was just shocked yet again.. we all knew she had been suffering from a relapse of cancer and it has already spreaded to her liver and of cos,there wasnt much time left for her..but she never once gave up and kept fighting on until the day God took her away

auntie lydia, i remembered was a really quiet soft spoken lady..even though she was ill, she never told anyone and stuff cos she was a really private person..but of cos eunice being my best friend in church shared with me her pain and all..

i went to the vigil service at her house earlier on and when eunice saw me coming from a distance, she started walking towards me quickly, threw me a great big long hug and started weeping. I could feel her sorrow and grieve and i cried too .. we both stood there for a while without speaking.. there wasnt anything i could say to comfort her but only my presence which i hoped calm and cheered her up

i stayed there for a couple of hours often telling eunice that if she ever needs anything, just give me a call and i'll be there.. she has 2 younger brothers 12 and 14 very young and i guess they cant really comprehend the situation much although they were quite prepared too.. sigh

there was another passing on also, uncle henry , he was in charged of the children's before and after sch care many years ago and my dad worked with him for many years and when i had my sch holidays in the past, i often went over to help and thus knew that uncle was a very God fearing man who was always so helpful

uncle henry has been suffering the onset of a brain tumor for many months and has been going thru chemo..i remembered once i saw him in church being the same old him and as cheery and 2 weeks later, his hair was white and he lost like almost half his weight, he cudnt even stand properly and needed the help of his son supporting him

that very sight made my heart ached.

the deaths of 2 people i know of taught me how short life is and how we ought to treasure what we have right now for we never know when will God take us home

2 Timothy 4:7
I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith

i have jelly legs =(

i never experienced such tiredness before in a long long time

badminton for 2 hrs in the morning , rushed home and then out to meet my partner to get her evening dress and we shopped for 5 hours straight n the after effect of this would be my legs feeling like jelly now =(

going shopping with dan was kinda frustrating cos i thought the dress was nice and all but she felt that she couldnt bring out the flavour of the dress(direct translation from chinese of wad she said) and i couldnt understand cos it was either nice or not at all , simple as it was

i finally got to leave when my brother picked me up at tiong for night classes at church and of cos i was extremely tired to really really pay good attention to wad rev.quek was saying but yeahs i guess it was hard to catch up too since i missed 2 lessons in a row =(

i'm going to shop for my pair of shoes for grad night tml alone, yes i repeat, ALONE .
i've decided that i needed some time alone to do things by myself without anyone, and have some peace and quietness

tomorrow i'll get a reply from holy innocents whether i'll get to relief teach, i pray hard that i can get it

no job = no income = no $$ = no food! my lame theory but it is true isnt it? everyone works for money in order to survive

sometimes, i feel that we are driven by money. the devil of the dollar sign haunt us so badly that we can lose everything for money..

to be honest, without money, we are dead. think about it.. if you have ZERO dollars to start today with, how would you spend the day? suddenly, i'm very much impressed by those families who are so poor and yet managed to send their children through university education, amidst all the quarrels and all. you gotta admit, poor families face more quarrels and fights. that itself answer why we are so driven by money. we can't even find peace in our basic foundation of social life without money, or rather, without ENOUGH money..

i hope i would not get too lost while trying to make life more comfortable for my future..therefore i must constantly remind myself not to get lost.. and i definitely need guidance from God to do all things accordingly..

oh pls, help me