a decade old friend =)

yippies!

out with a decade old friend is heartwarming, memories of childhood flooding back to my mind almost instantly and funny comical things that we do together , it was good catching up on all the secrets and gossips

not in any mood for shopping so we randomly walked and talked and sat down finally to talk and took some pictures =) quality sucks though cos of the light in the background

you're still the same old wacky cranky evon i knew in primary 5 =)





and to greggy, thank you so so much for the huge sunflower that i always wanted but is sold out at taka! =) it was awesome and u even had to order it from the other side of the world! the first birthday gift i receive =) thank youuu soo much

love,jo

shrek 3!

shrek 3 was hilarious, i think the babies are adorable (donkey's and shrek's) and the gingerbread man! extremely cute!

im excited for later today's activities! cos im meeting an extremely old pal of mine =)

its good when i've got stuff to do!

on another note, i thought it kinda pissed me off when i was talkin to this friend abt what has he been up to lately and he told me to check out his blog if i wanted to know. The point is, the reason im talking and asking u is becos i felt like i didnt talk to u for a long time and wanted to do catching up and strike up a decent convo, but i felt like a stupid fool so yeahs my reply was that since its so troublesome for one decent convo then in future i'll jus check out the freaking blog, since thats wad friendship actually means to that particular person

ok i doubt i care but i just wanna whine and bitch abt it in the spur of a moment

so its not how many years of friendship u have with a person, it's how u make an effort to maintain the friendships around you and i can proudly say that i do make an effort everytime

tired

good nights

today

what i did today

woke up late
lazy so order macs
go to NP to collect graduation gown
now guilty so going to swim

what i am going to do tml

go to segar to do refund for lessons
trouble sue to collect cheque from west coast cc =)) thanks babee (finally i have money)
meet sue at JE and go town-ing
watch SHREK 3!!! with the 'family' =)

blisss

sunday!

vista's working well

i've been going out so often these few days and im getting extremely tired cos i always not get enough sleep =( but i'm still surviving! still going fine

celebrated a church pal's birthday today at ichiban boshi, goodie jap food =) and of cos all of us had fun laughing and joking with one another!

ate alot this couple of days and am pack with activities for next week =) this sounds fun

happy birthday evon!

happy birthday evon!

i am a happy gurl!

i am a very happyy girl!! =))

i finally got my new vaio laptop!

and and and i met mr wang aka the suaku hahaha!

sigh

i think my biggest regret now is signing up for the kickboxing classes which i dun wanna go at all! =(

the earlier entries were rather emo! so yes emo-ness shall stop now
predeparture seminar was boringggggg

i am only human

i am in control of my life but things slip away.
i care too much yet i cant be bothered.
i am determined but lazy.
i have enormous willpower but i can break down.
i dun give a shit about what others think yet i can be overwhelmed by something someone said.
i need to pack yet i refused to start.
i am strong but i am weak.

i am only human.

to walk a thousand miles

The roads are long and connected, they weave and sometimes, they're straight. Some roads are wide, and some are narrow, some are paved, and some are not.

Its all like a road isn't it? Each and everyone of us, and how we are all, connected. Some better then others, some not very well at all. We are all like roads, providing a service to the world.Some better then others, some not at all. A mile on the road, is like a year forgone, the moments of time rushes past, without stopping, before knowing it, it is gone.

The reluctant pursuit. That chase. So simple in desire, and yet, almost impossible to acheive.That one simple word that Thomas Jefferson uses twice in the Declaration of Independence.

Happiness

"We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness."

So simple a word, Happiness, befitting of a document as regal as such?

The Pursuit of Happiness, isn't a mere movie, or a mere line in the Declaration. It charts our life. And it defines our inner most desires; To be happy.

Happiness? In Jefferson's ideals, were to be free, to be able to apply the unalienable rights of Life, and Liberty, and to Pursue. To Pursue.

To pursue what? Happiness.

Walking on our road of life makes us pursuants, to this grace so elusive and unimaginably mystical. To walk on this road for a thousand miles, is like counting a thousand stars. Each mile, as brilliant as the last.

At the end of the road, what will our answer be? Did we succeed in attaining Happiness? Or is the pursuit still on?

My life is a chasing game. As much as yours is.

Death, again, is merely eternal rest, in an immortal's arms. Run the race, and fight the good fight.

i am terribly upset and i cant get to bed

don't ask why

its just not abt 28weeks later

28 weeks later

i watched 28 weeks later with my parents a moment ago, it was quite a meaningless movie or so i thought

my church friend - a guy told me that he had nightmares when he watched it so i guess he made me overrate the rate of horror-ness or stuff but it wasnt that scary at all, i guess it was just the bloody scenes and sound effects that did the job but in conclusion , that church friend of mine is not a man AT ALL,fancy getting nightmares abt it!

i've been shopping for the past 2 days, joining in the crowd for the earlier preview of the great singapore sale, i must say its quite 'happening' in town and all, its uber crowded! and i think kate moss' collection is nt very fantastic, i don't know why everyone's getting excited abt it in UK,maybe its much nicer over there ?they limited to 5 pieces per customer but i don't see anyone actually getting any at all

my laptop died on me after 3 days, and i have a substantial amount of information inside that i wanna save but now i wonder how the hell am i supposed to do it when the screen goes black every few seconds

boohoohoo

just when i thought

just when i thought i could go out with some old pals, the teacher called and begged me to go relief teach tomorrow but she said 60% standby so aiya heck, just gonna wake up at 6am and go as per normal cos i think they'll have something for me since alot of teachers are going to malaysia tomorrow for camp!

ok jo, $65 look forward! furthemore its friday and sch ends early! do until 1plus and go! yes $65 for the love of money this time round i will hang on!

im so so sorry kexin! next week i promise!

7.38pm

for $65

for $65 , its actually very easy to earn when u just sit there and stone

today the lower sec had game activities and the upper sec were left to do their own stuff so i was in charge of a few classes from 805amto225pm but me being smarty pants found out that most classes do not have teachers in there! so i left the class there to rot and i in the staff room to slack =) and i would walk to the class every 20mins to check on them just in case anything happens

i happened to have an old class which i used to teach last time, when i stepped in to take over from my other relief friend who was in there, i got a shock! why? cos one of the guy students ran up to me and said " ms fonnngggg" and hugged me! and i shrieked and ran outta the class!!!hahaha

yipppie!

jobbie!

yays! presbyterian high called me in for tml =) and and and i might get a tele-surveyor job which pays $8/hr

no job ?

i've sent out more than 10 emails for some job ads but of cos , none of them got back to me who wants someone who can only work for 1 month ? most of you would say confirm can find la, just keep looking! by the time i eventually get one , i think i would be on the plane flying towards brisbane

everyday i dread waking up, cos i know there wouldn't be anything i can do that is productive in my life at all

having just 2 slices of bread with peanut butter for breakfast and lunch sure doesnt help in keeping me happy, why does losing weight always have to be so tedious and painful, why cant it just be kaboom, and u lose like 10kg i wished the world has this machine where i step in and determine how much i wanna become, fat or thin , just based on my mood that day

sigh.

on another note , my mum asked me what i want for my birthday since its approaching, and yes there's alot of things i want but i dun actually need them

i guess i only need a digicam so that i can bring it to aussie and my parents can take the exsisting one to china in september when they go on holiday!

and besides im already getting a new laptop for school , what else can i ask for when they are paying tens of thousands for me to get a decent education i dun wanna be thinking " mummy i want this i want that " all the time

i do not need clothes,shoes or accessories i think i have more than enough to survive for the next decade . OK that is so not true, 10 years later, if i wear wad im wearing now , i think i'll become the retro woman of the year =) ok my clothes now definitely cannot suffice me for 10 years.

honestly , i wanna receive presents.. i have already forgotten that kinda surprise or happiness one gets when u actually receive a present, i have no idea why im feeling that way, but i just want presents! but i dun exactly want any, ok i bet u guys dunno what im talking abt or just maybe strike me of as being fickle minded but yes i do want to receive presents yet i don't exactly wish for them. ok weird me

i want that huge sunflower "softtoy" thats always in the take departmental store but yesterday it was gone , and now i cant buy it to bring over and put it in australia =(

doing nothing makes my mind wander off to a whole different world and i wish i need not step outta it

rain rain? no rain ?

ok kickboxing's starting tml! and i must be insane to go all the way to zhenghua cc and guess where's that ? in bukit panjang and i must take mrt then take lrt!

and and and tml's my first time taking the LRT!! woohoo sua ku jo! =)

and don't u guys think sometimes the sky seem to be having constipation, like wanna rain cannot rain! quite irritating at times cos its uber hot and extremely uncomfy all the time if there's no air con!

update another time

birthday+mum's day

we celebrated earlier for my mum's birthday+mother's day =)

daddy insisted on going to this japanese restaurant at mt faber safra for their extremely good buffet which included alot of stuff and we're extremely bloated now! it was a very good dinner and get together session where many childhood mischiefs were exposed, and how my mother suffered under my grandma in the past and how she was persecuted!

and and and how i was very naughty that i liked to draw on the walls of my home and stuff paper into the cd player whenever that thing which comes out for u to place the cd in shoots out =) ahaha i cant exactly remember all those nonsensical stuff when i was young but of cos i do remember part of it

how i used to anyhow cut my hair until i was bald in one spot or cut up the nice dresses i had in my cupboard!how my brother always made used of me! each and every topic was so hilarious and heart warming =)

good food + good company = good life =)

blades of glory

blades of glory anyone? =(

calling cardie!

woah , i just found out a AUD$10 calling card in australia can be used for 1280 mins worth of talk time and it includes calling back home ! if im not wrong about it, this is really dirt cheap!

the past few days have been boring , i do nothing except go jogging occasionally and going out alone to walk around and lazing around at home just watching teeveeeee and im getting sick of this routine

i cant find a job because no one wanna hire me for one month! basket

and right now , i m just waitin for the air con uncle to come service all the air cons in my house , and and and its 3 something and he's supposed to be here at 2 plus!!!!!!!

money cannot buy everything

sam brought across to me a very good point just now when she mentioned abt paris hilton going to jail soon. i rememebered reading it in the papers a couple of days ago and i was actually having a good laugh over it becos it stated that paris' mum shouted to the judge " you're pathetic"

this kinda drama always amuses me , how can anyone dare to scold or shout at the judge!

and sam said that this only proves one thing that money cannot buy everything and its indeed very true, but for the case of paris, she's gonna inherit the whole hilton empire so like sam said, who cares if she goes to jail or not, cos she doesnt need a resume to get a job

when she waves her hand or does a thumb signal, money will just go to her so yeahs

i just think its a very ridiculous biz in the celebrity world going to jail might just be another career boost for them

go suelin go!

ms nur suelin , goodie luck for exams tommorrow! =)

changes

changed the blogskin cos i had nothing better to do

went vivo alone and walked for awhile b4 coming home

this is what a jobless person basically does - bum around

boredom

im extremely bored at home right now and i wish someone ,anyone cud go out with me

"it is the choices we make that make us who we are. and no matter who we are, we have the power to choose what’s right."

or something like that. that’s the feel good line at the end of spiderman 3. for those who haven’t watched, don’t worry. i’m not gonna ruin it for you by telling who dies and what led to that sentence. let’s just say. spiderman’s friend teaches him that in this installment.

moving on to something that really this post is about. that would be the my end of poly life just passed. flew by really quickly. and i mean ridiculously quickly. the memory of me sitting and staring aimlessly during the first week of lectures is still very, very fresh in my mind. this last sem to me, more than any one, has been a story of choices. and just like spidey said. we all have the power to choose what’s right.

yeah right. if only i could websling to school and if only all my life’s choices were between good and evil, black or white. i was in that place where the next few choices i make may determine where i might end up for the rest of my life, and to say that thinking about it last sem has been distracting is an understatement to say the least. the thing is, not every choice is that simple. such as what should i do with my life?

but as always, i muddle along. and hope to be guided by forces unseen, in the right direction. every sem brings new changes and challenges, and this sem was no different. from overcoming my fear of presentations to combating pimple outbreaks, there was nothing this semester that i felt totally comfortable with. much of it felt like i was just trying to hang on, or just finding my way by holding on tightly to a very thin and fragile thread. everything was just so last minute. juggling my time hasn’t been something that i’ve learned well last sem.

and like spiderman, my friends have taught me much..new relationships have been made, existing ones have evolved and changed. it’s no longer about whether you lose or gain them. friends are gained and lost when how much they mean to you changes. i’m going to continue that thread of thought another day.

i'm dead tired and i know i was babbling abt things no one could understand

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bahs

alright, flight's confirmed accomodation not yet but im pretty confident we're gonna get it .

but im actually quite pissed that the guy doesnt wanna share with another guy but he's grumbling that he's paying higher cos his is the largest room with an attached bathroom! so just share with another guy larh then u can pay lesser wad ! i cant possibly share since my room's the smallest and being a girl i think i prefer my own privacy =)

im very excited that sam's coming over for 2 weeks and its just the start of sch so its still quite slack and still a period of adaptation and stuff =) everything's planned out well and hopefully it turns out on a positive note as well!

being the organizer of the next class outing is quite taxing since not everyone is cooperative =( and its so hard to organize an 'mourning' session/dinner for the guys enlisting haha sounds mean eh

being jobless sucks, cos no income and $$ in the bank just decreases each day and soon it would be zeroooo! then how ?! my auntie plan of jus staying at home is halfway sucessful only , imagine everyday i sit at home and count the number of days left to 7th july , who wudnt die ?

spiderman 3 tonight with my parents , hope it turns out good

a deal thats sealed

7th July 2007

(Saturday)

9.20pm

EK 432