swotvac

so its swotvac now, meaning 1 week of study break b4 the exams but its not affecting me because my life now is just lab work and more of it to come

so to everyone out there who is studying like crazy for exams, good luck =)

for those 3 musketeers living in unit 62 who reads my blog( yes i know u guys do) , study hard and dont play so much eh!

to simon, its tough taking masters although i have no idea/clue about it but try your best and God will do the rest =)

to lydia who never fails to make me smilee , dont get distracted ! if u need foood in the midst of studying, give me a ring! azaaaa!

hakim i hope ur leg gets better too!

and those back in singapore, mags jinny and sam! i know things havent been going at all smoothly but im sure things will get better very soon!

sue who's enjoying life now without exams, continue to enjoy them keke!

i've finally told my supervisor about going back home so im officially coming back 19thdec and leaving by19th jan i think yeaps!

and so another weekend has passed so quickly that its scaryyyy we're entering november and before i know it, i would be on a plane back home !

cheng's birthdayy

cheng's 24th was spent in a very simple dinner, dinner at wishart sqaure and it was off to ktv =)

he did the imitation of fei yu qing's song with jay chou super duper well and i was very extremely impressed with it =))

as usual, great company =)

summertime

i wonder if, in the dead of winter, the trees give up hope. the feeble sun never seems to come out and night falls at 4pm. this happens day after day. will spring ever come?

but spring always does, sometimes unexpectedly. in the coldness, a whisper of warm breath stirs, the snow stops. an occasional cold snap might return for a short while, but eventually and inexorably, the months turn and a new season begins.

since i am famously impatient, i think i went through more lessons in patience than anyone else. it is a lesson God makes me learn over and over again. so i have been put into situations that sorely test my patience, stamina and faith. the pain seemed pointless then, and incomprehensible. i chafe restlessly, or rail hopelessly against things that i don't like, injustice that i can do nothing about. the hardest struggle though, is the wait in the dead of winter, wondering if things would ever be different, or am i to potter on in the same way until i shuffle off the mortal coil. it is so much harder to be passive than to act.

but spring always comes. sometimes the thawing of the soil takes place imperceptibly and slowly, other times the change is cataclysmic increase in temperature. i have lived enough to realise that changes can come from most unexpected quarters.

the oddest part is, at least in my own life, changes rarely come from my own initiative. people make grand plans for their lives, i live from day to day, mainly because i am too fickle-minded to carry out my own plans for tomorrow. instead, doors seem to open and close, i suppose, when God wills them to. a tiny step or action can set off events that change everything

i like to think that i have become more patient, so, Lord, no more lessons in patiences please! but when the trials do come, let me remember that You see everything. He knows that i want to move, He sees all the circumstances around me, and bides His time, waiting for the right moment to move His hand. i think this is the only way to 'run and not grow weary, to walk and not be faint.'

its summertime

Stepping back, slowing down and letting it all sink in

Stepping back, slowing down and letting it all sink in

its almost stupendous. We say it to ourselves all the time and its just plain annoying. It happens every month or for some of us every week. It comes at the breaking point which comes all too frequently.

Then we throw our hands in the air and say, I need to step back, slow down and let it all sink in.

Sounds familliar? It sure hell does to me!

While standing behind me, N mumbled, I cannot be bothered with this. I turned around, looked at her, and waited for a good 2 seconds before saying, Are you digging your fingers into the cracks of our foundation?

And we had a very bimbo moment when a very gorgeous person walked into the cafe. She attempted to flirt, to no avail. N is amazing.

Life now is pretty much, lab lab and lab. bleargh.

I need abit of colour.

bravery

what makes us brave enough to take the plunge, straight into the deep end? my muse, broken plastic-eyed doll, lies at the bottom of a sodden well and my eyes do this trick of sorts wherein they're filled, quite suddenly, with tremoring, salty tears reminding me i'm still standing. and with a gasp we surface again, gulp in the tense air.

i learn about melancholy in the confines of a room and within the walls it washes over us in a gentle wave. all we can do is keep, breathing. one foot in front of the other till we finally, arrive. and the words have now run, completely dry.

but you know what, we always return. life goes a full circle

oh my

im in the lab on a early sunday morning, kill me pls!

i came early to i can make it in time for church at 1030 while i incubate my stuff for 3 hours b4 returning to settle them BAHS

then i probably need to go get groceries if not i've got nth to eat for the following week

BAHS

oh my gosh, i keep doing the wrong things today

i guess im supposed to talk to nick abt going back to singapore but because i keep doing the wrong stuff, i 'm so afraid that i think im gonna extend my deadline to nxt week in telling him abt returning to singapore

BAHS

AND I NEED TO GO TO THE LAB TML AND SUNDAY!!!!

no mountain too high

If we peer too far ahead of today, the challenges may feel like a Mt. Everest climb. They can appear impossible to handle if we think we have to be ready for the"hill"

Every hill in life is too high if we think we must climb it all at once. But no hill is insurmountable if we take it one step forward at a time with God’s help.

God is there to give us strength for every hill we have to climb.

nt happy

just when i actually think im happy

im really not

i've been feeling grumpipi the past 2 weeks and after a spade of events, i really am unhappy with myself and with everything

i just want to go home desperately right now

i've never felt this way in a really long time when i think of home and tears would just roll down

i just dont want to be here anymore

我要回家

it has been a really exhausting day! nick threw me a really simple question and i actually took 3 hours when i could solve it within 5mins

yes how dumb ! he's starting to not tell anything anymore to me when i do my experiments, i've gotta figure everything out myself b4 i double check with him and proceed , sigh i do not like this

seriously, that was the last thing i ever ever wanted from you.

mags

mags

i wish u were here right now!

=)

more photos from weihar's birthday last weekend =)

it was goooooooooooood

its too late

there's nothing you can do when u missed that chance to do/say something

its too late for anything to be done

anyhows its the 4th day my stomach's still churning and im having the runs but theres' no freaking doctor till nxt tues, by that time i think i would have died

=)

thank you Lord =)

nauseated

i went to the lab and there wasnt a single soul so i left at 1030 becos i felt nauseated but yet i really dun wanna see the doctor! i'm sure i'll be fine after awhile

i wanna eat fillet o fishhhhhhhhh

and the proposal results are out BOO

sickleave

its good to just stay home and watch hk drama the entire whole day!

but it gets boring after awhile haha

anyhows, its good its good

=)

so isnt it time to do something?

argh

i'm exhausted to the max from going to the toilet umpteen times

from starving since i've not eaten anythingthe entire day but yet not hungry at the same time

for wanting to puke but can not

for running a fever and do nothing abt it

i'm always a victim of food poisoning, i have no idea why

i came home wanting to take a nap but the chinaman and the gf talked so loudly and argued almost every second made me really pissed (since im sick and i just wanna slp)

for 2 whole hourss , there was no peace

kill me, pls

thanks

thanks for taking me for granted, really.

shucks, going jogging in the hot sun with a not so fully digested stomach and then not drinking enough water later on and having ice chocolate makes me wanna kill myself right now

a churning tummy and a bad migrane is the last thing i want right now

weihar's 23rd

weihar's 23rd was spent in style at the caxton hotel's chargrill terrace and bar =) GREAT steak! and awesome wines (red+dessert) everyone was happy =) at least I WAS!

more pictures to come when i get them from weihar!

blake

I was angry with my friend:
I told my wrath,
my wrath did end.

I was angry with my foe:
I told it not,
my wrath did grow.

william blake


i guess, in this rather bleak context, it would be better to have the unhappiness expressed, cos if it is not, it would mean that there is no more reason to communicate. not sure which is preferable. it would be best, of course, not to be angry at all. i am sorry that i am as petty and thin-skinned as every woman can be, and probably a little more.

high tea in style

three of us had the chance to try the high tea buffet at Joseph Alexanders off coro drive this afternoon and it was good! it was good old fun of chit chatting and alittle bit of sharing and just fun filled conversations =) pictures will do the talking this time round!





then we went to visit the art museum for a while before heading to take a ride on the Brisbane Eye at Southbank !