1. I DO NOT YOUTUBE EVERYDAY
2. THE THINGS I DOWNLOADED AMOUNTED TO LESS THAN 2.5GB

SO IF THE INTERNET'S THROTTLING AS YOU CLAIMED, IT IS NOT MY FAULT AND DO NOT POINT THE FINGER AT ME AND SAY THAT I STREAM ALOT EVERYDAY AND YOUTUBE EVERYDAY WHEN YOU DO NOT KNOW ANYTHING. YOU DONT EVEN EXPERIENCE HAVING YOUR FUCKING INTERNET CUT OFF EVERY 10-15MINS SO JUST SHUT UP

ITS BEEN THE WORSE DAY EVER TODAY FINDING OUT WHAT YOU 'VE BEEN DOING THE PAST 2 MONTHS HAS FAILED AND IT DOESNT HELP BEING A HOUSEMATE , INSTEAD OF TALKING TO ME YOU ACCUSE ME OF THINGS THAT I DID NOT DO, AND NO PLS DO NOT COME AND TALK TO ME AFTER SEEING THIS BLOG ENTRY

YOU KNOW WHAT, EVER SINCE A MONTH AGO, THIS HOUSE HAS NEVER BEEN A HAPPY HOUSE. TALK ABT TREATING ME LIKE A CLOSE FRIEND? SCREW IT COS THATS JUST BULLSHIT

I NEED TO SLEEP IT ALL OFF BUT THIS BREAKDOWN IS REALLY HITTING ME VERY HARD

there are too many what ifs, and not enough certainties. i know this should be an open palm and not a closed fist, so why am i still so afraid? and i'm really back on my knees. if You are the God who says yes, then may i trust You know, and will give me nothing less than what is best for me, for us.

party timeeee

the standard shifts higher and higher the more we prove ourselves able to meet it, so at what point do we, can we actually stop? perhaps it's endless, maybe we're just never happy being "mediocre", but in a world where "best" is no longer definitive enough to not change, maybe we'll just always be mediocre. so if there is such a fixed standard, i can hardly imagine this standard is to be found in ourselves.

While the project is soon to be over, there is this wound up coil inside me that refuses to unwind. I thought it would be like a tightened rubber band released from a tight grip, unfortunately, it seems like the rubber has hardened.

It seems that things will start to get busy too soon. This time, I need to face my things with more guts and more honesty.

It will happen.

drifting

i really think im drifting away from everybody and im not afraid to mention names

weihar mic , we seldom hang out already
i dont talk to nelson yit anymore at all, he seems to hate me alot and im tired of that crap
even my own housemate simon leong doesnt exactly talk to me anymore

i hang out with the most random people now, im enjoying it not that im not, its just that sometimes u just wonder if u drifted apart or did they just not bother talking anymore

i cook but no one eats, or its just left in the fridge and after a few days im the on throwing all away like why do i even bother cooking so much for people anyways? becos they are studying and i dun want them to starve but no one sees that point no one does anyhows.

im so tired really exhausted from everything

my last semester, last 3 months and yet im not even a tinge happy abt everything, how weird.

asos isnt a good website to go to when u're bored, it damages your wallet quite heavily!

i always thought that the people around me are weirdos sometimes but after all these actions that people do, its making me wonder if i am the weird one instead, reallyy.

it just puzzles me how individuals can treat me so indifferently to others IN FRONT of me or somehow throw their temper for no apparent reason given

if pictures speak a thousand words then i think actions will gather about a million words then

sometimes it saddens to know how crappy a person treats me, but i'm not guilty of treating that person shabbily so im not ashamed of myself or anything that i did .

not showing that im upset doesnt mean im not and it takes alot to hide that emotion,

really , what is wrong with you? or rather ME

and we put up with piecemeal updates, but it's not enough. i'm hit by the overwhelming, crippling, helpless sense that maybe things and people are really fading away, and all i can hope to grasp are random memories. but even those are awful and incomplete.

reji

a decision that came up so random but nonetheless i think i enjoyed it that night

I need someone to slap me and wake me up to reality so that i can start writing asap

but this isn't happening and i really have no idea where to get that motivation to even begin.

i wanna wash my full bucket load of clothes but i cant get a frigging chance to use the damn washing machine.

pissed.

i dun like u!

maybe its true that im very hard to please but i guess its just normal for someone who just wanna sleeeep and not be awaken at all!

eversince ch*nam*an is back, i've never been exactly happy in the house and i really dun know why although simon says he's a good guy and always emphasizes it and no doubt i do agree but i still dun like !

i dun like seeing some guy scratching his butt from time to time which is so gross or talks so loudly ! like today, at 645am i hear slamming of doors and clanging of pots, microwave oven door shutting countless times , heavy loud footsteps and even slurping of noodles! for that split second i wanted to walk out and ask him to be more considerate but i kept calm and finally walked to the batheroom to bathe and get ready for lab almost an hour earlier than usual

the weirdest thing is internet keeps disconnecting too and its kinda frustrating

in the past he doesnt stay much cos he hangs out with his gf but now that his gf is gone, he is home everyday

sigh, maybe im askng for too much but i guess the least is to be more considerate early in the morning! luckily i have less than 3 months left if not i dun know how am i gonna take this much nonsense

happy birthday samantha!

=)

loveess

sigh

sighh

so many things so frustrating

and jsut when i thought i was bent on going to lab to do lab work! I FORGOT TO BRING MY LAB KEYS

annd i only found out when i reached the lab , after an hr of bus ride and walking up the slopes

AARGH!

walking

walking home yesterday, i was struck by how long the road really is. you realise, as you tread it, that there's always a road to go back on, a path you could otherwise have taken, but we keep moving forward, to retrace is taboo, it's like creating a false memory by changing what is to what it could have been

when u're bored

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

car

ok time to update alittle bit on my car problems cos i havent been able to see anyone online to seek opinions or even to whine

i sent my car for a routine inspection on monday becos it got overheated the last week and even though everything has been solved i still wanted to go and check it

so the uncle called me yesterday saying that the repairs and everything will be totalling up to $1850, yes i am not kidding you

why ? cos there's loads of things wearing out or spoilt and therefore has to be changed

and okays if i dun repair them i cannot get a road worthy cert which means that the car's not in gd shape and then i cannot sell becos i need that cert to sell

SO, either
1) the previous owner really proved that the car was alright when it was sold to me since it came with the cert and i was fucking suay that once i drove it everything started to crack

2) she went to a mechanic who is her friend therefore giving her a goahead with the cert without thoroughly checking everything

BUT then again, she serviced it just b4 she sold it to me, so im trusting that it was in tip top condition

i called my dad and i cried over the phone becos i felt really horrible for using so much money but my mum consoled me saying that this is part and puzzle of owning a car and of cos a really old one

honestly this old car has never given me any problems even though everything's cracking down but it has served me really well and i wouldnt expect it to break down like that perhaps its the cons of buying a really old car , i dun know but im gonna try to sell it and take the bus whereever i go now. I guess its how we have to adapt to changes and not wait for the changes to adapt to our lifestyle

as much as i dun look like im super upset abt this whole incident, I AM , and nothings gonna change that for a long time becos if u're not the one forking out this money to get things done, u never know how much it can affect u, so i hope u ppl who read this and know what happened can be more understanding and stop pokin fun at me whenever you get the chance, cos sometimes its really not funny at all.

sent my car for servicing

no car tommorrowwwwwwwwwww and i feel so handicapped!

guttons day out