another year

Another year has passed so quickly. Without effort, another age of youth has gone . I feel old

It is the time of my life where I start asking real questions and fear for the future. Things that are more real, more scary then any other ever. But if you think about it calmly.. its not that big a deal. Just get on with it.

Another thing that is demoralising; watching your world around you slow down, and realising how everyone else is moving fast ahead, faster then you are. This is the time when I should probably sit up and say, get on with it jo, just bloody get on with it. But i find myself immobilised, by what is the beauty of sitting in time. Like sitting in a hot bath.

Long gone is the deadly desire to keep running till I fall, all I want to do now is lie down on the green pastures beside the still waters, and restore my soul.

Very soon, the sun will hover just above the horizon, and I will have to get up from my moist perch in the fields to carry on running towards the sun, to another field where I have another couple of hours to lie and bath in time.