heat

its amazing how everything fluctuates and how it is always so impossible for things to remain at a smooth constant

for the past 4 days, the sweltering heat got to my nerves and all i wanted each day was that bottle of ice cold ribena gushing down my throat and tingling my veins

ooh have you ever had one of those days, where you got up feeling uneasy and odd then you start replaying incidents in your head, things that happened, things that people said just to pick up pieces of a mysterious puzzle which you do not even know whether or not it exists and then emotions start running aplenty but you still cant put to place what the matter is

you feel some nostalgia, thinking of the good old past then wish your life didnt have to be like that though you're not sure what like that is either. its befuddling and confusing and upsetting because you cant help but believe something is odd and no matter what you do to calm yourself, nothing would work till you find out what is wrong or what is not

you want to talk to someone about it but you cant because you are not able to put to place the source or even the problem and also because you are afraid because you fear making a mountain out of a molehill.

i think something is up and i feel weird

i want to know what it is but i just cant figure it out